I'm Rich!

I'm a billionaire!!

Is this real life?

No srsly tho..

Did this actually happen?!

I spent it all in an hour. Dw, I'm still a millionaire :p

One Crazy Step At A Time

In a perfect world, what would you do? Who would you be?

I've had people asking me this many times,
and it is this very question that persistently rings in my head time and time again.

"What makes me happy?"

and every time I find myself listing a bunch of things I enjoy doing, there will be a million more reasons why I shouldn't go through with that.
My biggest mistake is to ask for someone else's opinions before doing something that I really wanted to do. Why?
90% of the time I would most likely get discouraged and not follow through.

It was then that I realized the real question would be..

"What is stopping you?"

Fear.

Fear of failing. Fear of rejection. Fear of ridicule. Fear of criticism. Fear of not being good enough.

At least, those are mine.

I've made a resolution to be a better person this Summer. Someone who follows my dreams and does the impossible, even if I have to be my only supporter in things like this. After all, I can only get better, and everyone is bound to start somewhere. Should I not be able to follow through, at least I'd be proud to say that I've tried my best.

I have a lot of ideas and a lot of hobbies that I plan to see come to life this holiday. I'm facing my fears heads on and I guess I can't make a list of achievements until the end of Summer, but I definitely will. I plan to conquer at least 10 big things I've always wanted to do (but have always been afraid of), and facing my more smaller scale fears on a day to day basis.

Writing this down and publishing it to the world is my promise (and some pressure) I'd like to give to myself that I'd follow through with this. I'll leave it to you guys to judge how well I do ;)

Until then,

xoxo 

Princess Syara

2 Years

Sometimes I look back at all the things that has happened, what has changed and what remains.

And I suppose this is why I love taking videos.

It gives me the ability to freeze time and capture my memories,

so I could relive any moment again and again.

I guess you could sort of call it like eternalizing things that you hold dear.
People may change, time moves forward and never stops,

but the people in the video will always be as they once was, as you remembered it.

Only much clearer.

Choices

When the winds of change blows, there are two types of people. People who build walls or people who create windmills.

Have you heard of the old saying that the Universe has it's own way of bringing two things that are meant to be together and if fate has it that it is your's, it will be no matter how hard you push it away and if it isn't, it will never be?

Well I beg to differ.

I feel like to some extend the Universe.. God.. Whatever-whatchamacallit does have its plans for all of us. We are destined to be somebody, I am sure.

But I also do believe that you change your own fate depending on your attitude and what you do.

Number one. Gratuity and appreciation.

I can't say this enough, but I am a person who thrives on appreciation. If you acknowledge and appreciate the things I do for you or for myself, it just pushes me to want to be better and better and better. But I'm sensitive and weak against criticism (call it my kryptonite!) because it does get to me and makes my self confidence plummet to the ground. That's just the way I am.
But you know what? If I let that bother me I would've been dead by now. I'd probably go crazy like that UCSB dude and start shooting the world for being incessant assholes to me.

....But I know better.
Which brings me to my 2nd deal breaker...

Ignorance.

I choose to ignore the haters and live my life the way I want to. Because who's to decide what's good and what's not for me? If I believe I can do something, what makes you think I can't? If what I'm doing makes me happy, then who's to say I'm not doing the right thing? This is my life, not yours. Maybe you should worry about your own instead of what I do.

Fail or succeed, I learn from every decision or choice I make. And I believe that everyone deserves a second chance when they mess up. That's part of life, part of being human.

Always live with love, hope, passion, joy and respect.
Be nice, do the right thing and feel good about it. Avoid things that make you feel bad. Learn to put your foot down and say No if it makes you uncomfortable.
Question everything.
There is no way your life wouldn't go down the right path when you take everything in your stride with kindness, wisdom and a smile.

I think that whatever the universe has set for us is definitely not set in stone. It serves as a steady guideline, something to look forward to, but ultimately the decision is up to you on what the outcome is. Don't let the universe or religion or a higher authority or your friends or even your pet (wtf) tell you what to do. Go out there and be your own leader! Make a difference, make yourself happy.

Are you living the life you want to live?

Here's to the man who taught me to have my own principles and to take no crap from anyone. ---> 

(Not the most high & mighty pic but I think he's cuter in PJ's)
I love you Dad, 

Happy Father's Day.

Feeling Complete

I got an epiphany today.

When you date someone, what do you feel?
Butterflies in your tummy, ecstatic, like you're in Cloud 9?
Standard. As expected.

I heard that being in love tends to release endorphins in your body, the same hormones that makes you happy.

I think that while being in love, people tend to forget to love themselves.
How many times have you heard "I love him/her more than myself." or "I'm happy as long as he/she's happy"?

People tend to forget that having a boyfriend (or girlfriend) is more like a "power up" I would say, to make your (already interesting) life even more enjoyable. It isn't a necessity.

As much as you will eventually form a sort of telepathic sensitivity towards their moods or feelings as time passes by, it shouldn't affect who you are as a person. Of course, a single compliment from them means a lot more than recognitions from billions of strangers, and you'll find yourself wanting their acceptance in a lot of things but remember that you are still your own person. You don't need them to enjoy a vacation or something as little as a trip to the movies. If they're there, that's great. But if they're not, remember that they're people too with their own lives. Trust that if all the circumstances were right and they could be there, they would want to experience everything with you by their side too, but sometimes life gets in the way and you might have to do things like that separately. Do it anyway. Don't ever feel bitter if they're absent, it's not the end of the world.

Life is meant to be enjoyed. With or without that special someone.
Let them breathe, let them let you breathe.
Give love and give a lot of love. Give a lot of care and attention. But remember not to dedicate your whole life to a single person. I don't mean cheat on them of course, be loyal, be loyal to a fault. Be faithful, be kind.
What I meant was to give them a part of yourself, but your world is your world to conquer. (do I make sense?)
When they need their space, don't force them to stick to you like super glue. Let them breathe. Let them do what makes them happy. It gives you room to do what makes you happy too. Take advantage of that.

I think a relationship is meant for two people to co-exist, not for them to depend on each other for everything.

A perfect relationship in my head is when two amazing individuals pair up to make an electrifying team. Not a master and a puppy. If you get my metaphor. I want it to be like, I'm awesome, you're awesome, together we're better. Separate, we're still pretty darn awesome.

At least, for me, I want to be known as an interesting person, as myself, as Syara.
And not only be recognized as someone's girlfriend.

I want to be known for my quirks, my thoughts about the world, and all my creations that I'd like to share. My positivity, my warmth. And all my little visions and footprints that I hope would make the world a better place.

I guess what I'm trying to say is..

Be your own person.
Don't be afraid to be special.
Let your special someone find YOU special.
and of course, return the favor and make your special someone also feel special.

Because we are all unique and amazing and filled with so much life.

Each and every one of us, (even you who's reading this)
YOU are worth so much more and you know it.

Hope this jumpstarts your weekend with a bang.

Love always,
xoxo
Princess S